the play: cough/laugh.

i ran into a really good friend of mine today. :) (mr. valdez it was excellent to see you and catch up on bits of life.) he was also in a play today that was showing in the fine arts center on campus for free, so i went. it was wonderful because for about a half hour, i wasn't worrying about my life or anything, i was able to just be. it had a very unique concept. in this play the actor's reacted to basic audience disturbances like coughs, talking, cell phone's going off, clapping, etc. the play only progressed as the audience reacted to the current situations in the play. it started off pleasant and awkwardly slow with little action, then turned darker as the audience's common decency went out the window. people in the audience started talking loudly, coughing on purpose, etc.   as a fellow audience member i wanted to muzzle a few individuals. it was amazing to see as my frustration increased the darkness of the play's mood increased too. in the end you find out that the point is that our reactions have consequences and that we can't control others but we can feel and be upset by there choices and then consciously choose whether or not we want to express anything about it.

i was profoundly touch by what one person said about how in our lives we are the "actors" and we choose what "audiences" to reacted to. even when we are presented with negativity and disregard for our feelings and efforts, we still have the power to choose how and when we react. the key is that we still feel, we still care, we still crave acceptance, therefore we can become upset by down moments and have valid emotions, we don't have to hide who we are. we have a wonderful power to choose how we react. 

this may not make as much sense for those who didn't see the play cough/laugh or it might not make sense because you're not me, but if you have comments or thoughts or feelings about this feel free to let me know here, or my email j.school.account@gmail.com, or call me; i would love to hear what you think. 

17. just being, and then returning to overwhelmingly deep thoughts later.